It is here,
It will not stop,
It will not cease it’s pull,
Or push? – a plunge!
Not of a dagger,
But of a dagger, a figurative pain,
Pain of fear, but also of exhilaration,
A frenzy, but collected and planned,
Collected over years and tears,
Planned through disappointment.
Yes. I deserve this.
A self centered reward to myself.
The gift of new. Fresh. Free falling.
Free falling into fear, with the purpose to live.